I have been sad for a long time now (long time for me I am still a teenager it's probably not a long time for most people) and I've been losing interest in almost everything. Things I used to like doing are like chores for me now and I don't know why. I've been thinking about death a lot all the time and been looking for ways to kill myself but I feel like I can't really die I'm not sure why. I dont have many friends irl and we barely talk anyway so they can't help me if this is a problem and I feel like my online friends don't care at all and I'm bothering them, so they can't help me either if this is a problem. I don't know if it's a real issue or not, I have no reason to feel like that, and everyone is like that anyway (I think?) so I don't know if I'm being dramatic or not, or if I even deserve help.

(Sorry for my bad English and what I wrote this is my first using reddit I want to get this off my chest and ask for help that's it)

The entire band of the falcon died. Judeau died :'( Pippin died, Gaston died, everyone died. Casca doesn't remember anything. Griffith is a son of a bitch. I HATE HIM, how could he do something like that to his comrades and friends?! I already cried, I don't know what the fuck just happened, or what to expect... I feel great condolences for Guts...

I need a hug, this overwhelmed me.

Hello all, I saw multiple times the video clip of what just happened but I can not understand the meaning behind it, can anyone please help me?